Friday, March 07, 2008

March 8, 1998

I won't be posting anything over the weekend, so I might as well get this over with now.

Tomorrow is my 10th anniversary of sobriety. 10 years since my last drunk. 10 years of trying to learn to be a sober adult (not as easy a task as it might sound).

10 years of going to meetings, working the steps, working with others, often getting frustrated, occasionally feeling grateful and always, ALWAYS, learning patience, tolerance and acceptance. 10 years of FINALLY letting go of past slights and hurts, of learning forgiveness for others and forgiveness of myself. 10 years of learning compassion for others and compassion for me. 10 years of learning that there is some bad in the best of us and some good in the worst.

10 years of becoming a better person than I was during the first 49 years of my life.

10 years since I woke up in jail; homeless, penniless, careerless, loveless and drunk.

10 years that have been the most wonderful ten years of my life.

I thank God and the granddaddy of all 12-Step Programs for this life I've been given.

Dear God, please don't let me screw this thing up. And, if it be your will, please grant me another 10 years of sober, happy, joyous and free living. I promise to do everything I can to make it worth your while.

Have a great weekend, everyone!

4 comments:

SteveSchalchlin said...

Happy anniversary. I'm so glad you continue in sobriety. I like having you around.

SusanKr said...

Mazel Tov Ron. It's wonderful to see you happy - and sober - and alive. Hugs.
Susan

Bev Sykes said...

I love you, little bro. And I'm glad you found AA. Your recovery has been a wonderful journey to share.

JoyZeeBoy said...

Thanks to all of you for the kind words of love and support, today and over the last 10 years.

Bev, my earliest dark days in recovery were made more bearable by your love and support. I'll never forget that Advent package you sent me for my first Christmas in sobriety.

It made an indelible mark on me that you cared so much.

Thank you. From the bottom of my heart.

And Steve, meeting you twice in New York, once in early sobriety when I saw your studio staging/backer's audition of "The Last Session" and then, 2 years ago seeing you and Jim performing "Big Voice", helped me to reconnect to my love of theater. And reading of your personal exploits in life (love the "Hemo/Homo" series) actually gives me hope and strength when dealing with young men who are both POZ and trying to recover from their addictions.

And Susan, you've been another trusted friend, through thick and thin, since we first met on-line, back in CIS-Issues, 14 years ago this summer.
So you, too, have seen me at my worst and, hopefully, best.

In all those years I've gone from being totally unconnected to life and people to being totally connected to everyone I've met.

I wouldn't have missed this journey for anything.